Movie opens on:
A girl is sitting in the canteen under a tree. At some height , behind her, is a bulb hanging throwing light at her hair. The indirect light from the economics book in her hand is giving her face a beautiful glow.The kind of glow usually advertisers boast about. She is not concerned with the world. Her face has a feeling something close to content. But its hard to decipher if its real content or happiness. Because
Tere rukh pey jo bhi nazar gayi woh shola-e-husn sey jal gayi
tujhey dekh sakta nahi koi, tera husn khud hi naqaab hai.
Its a pretty sight altogether. Not about sexy,but innocent kind of beauty. But suddenly shot changes.Two people are walking in to the canteen. One of them is the girl's ex-boyfriend with his newly aquired girl friend. Both of them come over near the counter where girl is sitting. Xboyfriend strikes up some small talk with the girl. The girlfriend by his side is busy ordering two teas. Gf gets the teas. Both move away and grab a relatively dark corner of the canteen. Our girl is smiling a cool smile as if nothing happened. And i am sitting and watching in the trees shadows.
cut.........
It reminds me of a ghazal by Daagh Dehelvi
Lutf woh iishq mey paye hain ki jii janta hai,
par ranj bhi aisey uthaye hain ki jii janta hai
saadgi, baankpan, adavat, shokhii
tuney andaaz woh paye hain kii jii janta hai
terey iinhi kadamon ney, iinhi kadamon ki kasam
khak mey kitne milaye hain yeh jii janta hai,
muskuratey huye yun mazma-e-aghyaar (group of rivals) ke saath
aaj yun bazm mey aaye hain ki jii janta hai
dosti mey teri dar-parda(behind curtains) humare dushman
kiis tarah apney ,paraye hain, yeh jee janta hai
Why to write all this??? Because i realized a few things suring the whole interaction that happened. In this brief three minute episode I saw the guy's foolishness, girl friend's foolishness and pride, girl's hurt pride,sore heart and love.
The expression on girls face was never static. There was a hurt look a second on seeing him approcah with some other girl. Then there was a beautifully faked amile during the conversation that fools the guy. Then as he leaves there is a flicker of sadness. The same sadness when you realise that you have had good times and you realise that they are gone and will never come again. But it was somehow mixed with a little care and love.But may be it all was my imagination. The time stood still as these emotions passed on her face. I watched . Each emotion was there for a millisecond, But looked as if was there for ages. Because each emotion was not a single expression, but told a long story. And i felt sorry.
I felt sorry for the guy who couldnot keep such love.
I felt sorry for a girl who still loved such a guy.
I felt sorry for the girl who can have anything in the world but a guy she loves.
I felt sorry for all of us because however smart we are, life turns out to be smarter than us in love.
I felt sorry because the girl felt sorry.
Because her face had conveyed more than her voice ever could.
I felt sorry for myself because i know that appearences are deceptive, and i know that she can be an entirely different person.
I felt sorry because I knew what it feels like to be in love and then never being able to leave love, even when love has left you.
I felt sorry that i couldn't do anything about it.
People would still love each other, and people would still leave each other.
Because pride is one thing that kills love, Because people look for respect in love .Because people use people who are in love. Because love has nothing to do with your mind.Because if you think that it has something to do with mind, then you haven't fallen in love, you just thought that you had.
I felt sorry because we all know that love can go in a second and we will wait a life time for it, if it goes.
But we will never realize this fact and work towards treating the love of our lives any better.
We will keep on taking them for granted.
We will keep on treating them as inconsequential.
We will rather take our chance on it rather cherish it.
I feel sorry for the way we are........
I felt sorry that my being sorry won't change a thing............................
Monday, July 25, 2005
Friday, July 22, 2005
Black and White
yesterday i wrote a great deal about being judgemental. Right now i was reading the Organizational Behaviour booklet and i realized that when people say that don't be so Judgemental, they are actually talking about not passing Judgements on Other people's belief.
In any case the last logic holds that the moment you say "why be so judgemental"...you blew it and were judgemental yourself.But still i couldn't help but ponder that if it's so wrong then why still are people so judgenmental?
The reason I think is based on the fact that all of us see things in black and white. As the maslow's need hierarchy theory suggests that we are motivated by food sex and shelter...which are the basic needs.Similarly the basic need is safety and security. When we are listening to somebody we are doing a mental maths and putting it down in black and white.
Some one says something that's contrary to what we believe in .....and flashes the signal ...BLACK...danger. The safety and comfort is gone. Because it is an indicator that we cannot depend on the company because he/she thinks differently from what we do. The security of the trust is gone. Mind is doing it all the time. We keep on analyzing if we are safe or in danger. Of course the thought will seem too far fetched, but still somethings have been left with us from our days on the trees.
One of them is the survival instincts.So when you are asking me not to judge...you are asking me to be indifferent to the differences that are there in the thoughts.You are asking me to belive in a person who doesnot believe in what I believe in. You are actually asking me to overlook the differences.
Is that possible?? can we overlook differences. Can we percieve some thing to be bigger than us or blacker than us and the same time ignore the differences that exist?
I don't think so. So either you will think in terms of differences that exist or either you will think in terms of similarities AT A SINGLE INSTANCE....not both....So either it will be black or white...THINK.
bbye
In any case the last logic holds that the moment you say "why be so judgemental"...you blew it and were judgemental yourself.But still i couldn't help but ponder that if it's so wrong then why still are people so judgenmental?
The reason I think is based on the fact that all of us see things in black and white. As the maslow's need hierarchy theory suggests that we are motivated by food sex and shelter...which are the basic needs.Similarly the basic need is safety and security. When we are listening to somebody we are doing a mental maths and putting it down in black and white.
Some one says something that's contrary to what we believe in .....and flashes the signal ...BLACK...danger. The safety and comfort is gone. Because it is an indicator that we cannot depend on the company because he/she thinks differently from what we do. The security of the trust is gone. Mind is doing it all the time. We keep on analyzing if we are safe or in danger. Of course the thought will seem too far fetched, but still somethings have been left with us from our days on the trees.
One of them is the survival instincts.So when you are asking me not to judge...you are asking me to be indifferent to the differences that are there in the thoughts.You are asking me to belive in a person who doesnot believe in what I believe in. You are actually asking me to overlook the differences.
Is that possible?? can we overlook differences. Can we percieve some thing to be bigger than us or blacker than us and the same time ignore the differences that exist?
I don't think so. So either you will think in terms of differences that exist or either you will think in terms of similarities AT A SINGLE INSTANCE....not both....So either it will be black or white...THINK.
bbye
Thursday, July 21, 2005
Judge Not, that Ye be not judged.
So you are following this beautiful conversation.You have found some mighty logical arguments and the other person is just about to sink his ship and drown.Success is so near and you have taken an hour of persuasive tactics and mental algorithms and strong logic to reach this far.You are about to hear the magic words..."yeah you are right. How come i never realized that". But no instead your ear drums viberate and your barin interprets it as "Don't be judgemental. Why do you judge things"....WHAT??????
So have you been stumped.Instead of following the conversation and putting you mind on killing the opponents logic, you start thinking..Am I being Judgemental??
Because being judgemental is wrong.That's what Matthew 7:1 starts with.
Judge not, that ye be not judged. For with what Judgement ye Judge, Ye shall be Judged: and with what measure ye mete, it shall be measured unto you. And why beholdest the mote that is in thy brother's eye, but considerest not the beam in thine own eye?
Matthew 7:1 -7:4
Perfect. So is being judgemental really wrong???????
This question is really worth this much effort because this has become a real trend in MICA. If you want to be considered Intelligent fight it out with wits and when wits leave your side, this sentence helps you out. No logic but pure question. Why being so judgemental??
And I say why not?
Why did you come to MICA. Because you decided that it was the best choice you had.You decide that it is the best college that you could get in to. Because you JUDGED it to be the best college in your reach. Now just for the sake of argument don't go on and say that "No, I didn't Judge, I decided". Because decisions are judgements. Because the decision is the strain of thought that has been JUDGED the best and accepted as a course of action.
Your entire life from the day you are born is based on judgements or decisions if you don't like the feel of the word.You judged yourself against the world and formed a Self Image. You were judged of your capabilities time and again. People Judge you and you Judge them. Whether you say it out or not is just your belief. if you stop being Judgemental, you can't survive a second. Even you survive, not successful...in whatever you think success is. You can be successful only when you have deemed yourself to be successful when you stop being judgemental. But he..he..he... don't get so happy. Because the moment you thought yourself to be successful...YOU JUDGED YOURSELF.
May be I got it all wrong. May be you can be judgemental in certain aspects and not in others.AHA. Is it So?? Now, who Judges that. Is it that you are not supposed to judge People? But you are still judging yourself.So by this time you must be thoroughly bored and confused and judged this blog to be real Boring BLOG. So lets kill this conversation here.
Because the moment you say "Why are you being so Judgemental"......You judge me as being Judgemental.
So have you been stumped.Instead of following the conversation and putting you mind on killing the opponents logic, you start thinking..Am I being Judgemental??
Because being judgemental is wrong.That's what Matthew 7:1 starts with.
Judge not, that ye be not judged. For with what Judgement ye Judge, Ye shall be Judged: and with what measure ye mete, it shall be measured unto you. And why beholdest the mote that is in thy brother's eye, but considerest not the beam in thine own eye?
Matthew 7:1 -7:4
Perfect. So is being judgemental really wrong???????
This question is really worth this much effort because this has become a real trend in MICA. If you want to be considered Intelligent fight it out with wits and when wits leave your side, this sentence helps you out. No logic but pure question. Why being so judgemental??
And I say why not?
Why did you come to MICA. Because you decided that it was the best choice you had.You decide that it is the best college that you could get in to. Because you JUDGED it to be the best college in your reach. Now just for the sake of argument don't go on and say that "No, I didn't Judge, I decided". Because decisions are judgements. Because the decision is the strain of thought that has been JUDGED the best and accepted as a course of action.
Your entire life from the day you are born is based on judgements or decisions if you don't like the feel of the word.You judged yourself against the world and formed a Self Image. You were judged of your capabilities time and again. People Judge you and you Judge them. Whether you say it out or not is just your belief. if you stop being Judgemental, you can't survive a second. Even you survive, not successful...in whatever you think success is. You can be successful only when you have deemed yourself to be successful when you stop being judgemental. But he..he..he... don't get so happy. Because the moment you thought yourself to be successful...YOU JUDGED YOURSELF.
May be I got it all wrong. May be you can be judgemental in certain aspects and not in others.AHA. Is it So?? Now, who Judges that. Is it that you are not supposed to judge People? But you are still judging yourself.So by this time you must be thoroughly bored and confused and judged this blog to be real Boring BLOG. So lets kill this conversation here.
Because the moment you say "Why are you being so Judgemental"......You judge me as being Judgemental.
Friday, July 15, 2005
MICA
so after a long time i remember of this land of wasted posts and rotten ramblings.From my room in MICA the land of milk honey and gyaan ,the time when i started this blog seems to belong to some different era altogether.But i am sure of this one thing that i haven't changed a bit.
I can surely say that because right now when i have been assigned a very tough kind of research paper on something called design...my hands are happily tapping on this key board.If i go on and be more poetic i could have said that as i watch my hand create this blog....the movements almost follow the pattern of a conductor in symphony.Some times i think that life till now has been an accident.And every thing that has happened could have been better.
Much has changed.When i got over here i found that its not all that cool place filled with cool people.Rather its a place filled with the same kind of stuff world is made of..just with the difference that these people could beat an exam and convince a few faculties that they ought to be here.
The biggest thing that they miss is passion....obsession.I know that there are people over here who are just like me...but until know they have cleverly evaded my radars.Who ever few i found interesting ...later on...i found had been termed as psychos...misfits.Because they get a high on music, they don't bitch about people, they don't mind when people call them psychos, because their passion makes them indifferent to the social mec hanism of the world.Because they don't care what the society gives them in its mark sheet..because they are not going to be marked by society.Because they are the people who mark society....they are the ones who create history and these are the people...who provide people with timelines and events that contitute history.
They provide history with frame and not masses.
Abhi i will go on and run because my parter is making notes on the paper and we are supposed to present it tommorrow.If i don't do it she will kill me.I have never typed this fast ...and so sorry for the spelling mistakes.But there was something that had to come out.
bbye
The Rainmaker
I can surely say that because right now when i have been assigned a very tough kind of research paper on something called design...my hands are happily tapping on this key board.If i go on and be more poetic i could have said that as i watch my hand create this blog....the movements almost follow the pattern of a conductor in symphony.Some times i think that life till now has been an accident.And every thing that has happened could have been better.
Much has changed.When i got over here i found that its not all that cool place filled with cool people.Rather its a place filled with the same kind of stuff world is made of..just with the difference that these people could beat an exam and convince a few faculties that they ought to be here.
The biggest thing that they miss is passion....obsession.I know that there are people over here who are just like me...but until know they have cleverly evaded my radars.Who ever few i found interesting ...later on...i found had been termed as psychos...misfits.Because they get a high on music, they don't bitch about people, they don't mind when people call them psychos, because their passion makes them indifferent to the social mec hanism of the world.Because they don't care what the society gives them in its mark sheet..because they are not going to be marked by society.Because they are the people who mark society....they are the ones who create history and these are the people...who provide people with timelines and events that contitute history.
They provide history with frame and not masses.
Abhi i will go on and run because my parter is making notes on the paper and we are supposed to present it tommorrow.If i don't do it she will kill me.I have never typed this fast ...and so sorry for the spelling mistakes.But there was something that had to come out.
bbye
The Rainmaker
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