Dilemma and Heroes

Two thoughts..i decided to put down here before i forget. And since you people are the wiser of the lot, please help me understand, as i am lost.


1) every one in this world is equal. But we also have to recognize a person's individuality.So i cannot discriminate on the basis of caste, or race, or color, or any other thing. Now this doesn't mean i act that they are equal, but i have to believe they are equal to be true to myself. I have to understand that each one is born with the same potential, and can achieve anything. I should not judge them.

But some how i also have to believe that there is only one girl who is made for me. I have to differentiate her from the rest of them, and be so blind in love with her, that i cannot appreciate the beauty and intellect and charm of ANY other girl. In Fact she is supposed to be so unique that i decide to look at her face every morning, for the rest of my life.She is better than others. She is beautiful.

I don't grasp that.

2) We didn't remember the pyramids.We had to rediscover them. We didn't remember Harappa.We had to accidentally stumble across the city, while laying railway tracks. We don't remember our ancestors, who came before us or what they did. We are trying to scientifically prove that Jesus was a real man who walked the earth and not a figment of imagination. We want to prove his existence. We haven't been able to. Because we forget things if we don't see the evidence with at least two sensory perceptions.We forget if we don't take down notes.Just like I am doing over here. We forget so badly, that we can't remember anything about it.

So if we Knew of God, say the real deal, some 3000 years ago. Or some one was in touch. Or his appearance to people was commonplace. And so we actually wrote it down, so that we don't forget. What are the actual chances that we would remember him. That too when we try to forget so hard.What if the Renaissance and the entire movement was not to awaken us by questioning the nature and existence of GOD, but actually the start of a deep sleep? When we started trying to forget. When written word was not enough.Mind You. The same written word is enough for us, when we talk of socrates, and aristotle. No body goes out and questions whether they existed or its just written. So what makes us doubt one thing, and not the other. Not rational thinking. Not evidence. Its what we want to believe. Fact that we are so Shit scared, that we can't believe that some one else might be controlling our life. We have yanked the bridle hard, and really taken control. Haven't we? Its an entire population suffering with OCD.

Hmm....after reading what i have written, i started thinking if i am getting spiritual or what.

If you ask me. None of this makes sense. Actually None of it ever will.They are just our doll houses and play things to keep us occupied. We are not special nor this race grand. Our existence can closely be described as the slime covering earth. Like fungus. we can only exist in that thickness. Even fungus can naturally exist in more places. Talk about survival instinct. Tomorrow if there was a meteor shower, all this technology will be dust in seconds, we won't even survive that. Do you think if 50,000 of us survived, we will be able to land a man on the moon? trust me, will will first write a long account of what was, and then start from scratch, right from the stone age. And by the time they land a man on the moon, our story will be just mythology. Like Ulysses and Achilles and Hercules and Atlas.

Our knowledge is not distributed evenly enough. Most of Us are drones, managing things. They hey day of our career is how many people we manage. Not what we invented and created. No sir, we will choose commerce. We chose to feel. We choose hedonism. We just want to be happy, not strong.
We have started behaving like bees, trying to find strength in numbers. Days of the Heroes are gone.We are the american Idol People. we have a singing 11 year old girl as our Idol. Scientists are Geeks to be shunned and made fun of. Our hero is the 6 feet 11 hunk of meat, more of a bull than a man called the Undertaker. If i have missed anything from our recent history, its people who were common place 100 or 200 years ago.I say common place, because the amount of grey matter that existed 100 years ago as a ratio with population, we should have been living on mars by now. A time when people like chomsky were common place, atleast one in a city. tell me 5 people of today who you know as intellectuals. Not because they came on TV. But because they did something that changed our life. No Sir.