Movie opens on:
A girl is sitting in the canteen under a tree. At some height , behind her, is a bulb hanging throwing light at her hair. The indirect light from the economics book in her hand is giving her face a beautiful glow.The kind of glow usually advertisers boast about. She is not concerned with the world. Her face has a feeling something close to content. But its hard to decipher if its real content or happiness. Because
Tere rukh pey jo bhi nazar gayi woh shola-e-husn sey jal gayi
tujhey dekh sakta nahi koi, tera husn khud hi naqaab hai.
Its a pretty sight altogether. Not about sexy,but innocent kind of beauty. But suddenly shot changes.Two people are walking in to the canteen. One of them is the girl's ex-boyfriend with his newly aquired girl friend. Both of them come over near the counter where girl is sitting. Xboyfriend strikes up some small talk with the girl. The girlfriend by his side is busy ordering two teas. Gf gets the teas. Both move away and grab a relatively dark corner of the canteen. Our girl is smiling a cool smile as if nothing happened. And i am sitting and watching in the trees shadows.
cut.........
It reminds me of a ghazal by Daagh Dehelvi
Lutf woh iishq mey paye hain ki jii janta hai,
par ranj bhi aisey uthaye hain ki jii janta hai
saadgi, baankpan, adavat, shokhii
tuney andaaz woh paye hain kii jii janta hai
terey iinhi kadamon ney, iinhi kadamon ki kasam
khak mey kitne milaye hain yeh jii janta hai,
muskuratey huye yun mazma-e-aghyaar (group of rivals) ke saath
aaj yun bazm mey aaye hain ki jii janta hai
dosti mey teri dar-parda(behind curtains) humare dushman
kiis tarah apney ,paraye hain, yeh jee janta hai
Why to write all this??? Because i realized a few things suring the whole interaction that happened. In this brief three minute episode I saw the guy's foolishness, girl friend's foolishness and pride, girl's hurt pride,sore heart and love.
The expression on girls face was never static. There was a hurt look a second on seeing him approcah with some other girl. Then there was a beautifully faked amile during the conversation that fools the guy. Then as he leaves there is a flicker of sadness. The same sadness when you realise that you have had good times and you realise that they are gone and will never come again. But it was somehow mixed with a little care and love.But may be it all was my imagination. The time stood still as these emotions passed on her face. I watched . Each emotion was there for a millisecond, But looked as if was there for ages. Because each emotion was not a single expression, but told a long story. And i felt sorry.
I felt sorry for the guy who couldnot keep such love.
I felt sorry for a girl who still loved such a guy.
I felt sorry for the girl who can have anything in the world but a guy she loves.
I felt sorry for all of us because however smart we are, life turns out to be smarter than us in love.
I felt sorry because the girl felt sorry.
Because her face had conveyed more than her voice ever could.
I felt sorry for myself because i know that appearences are deceptive, and i know that she can be an entirely different person.
I felt sorry because I knew what it feels like to be in love and then never being able to leave love, even when love has left you.
I felt sorry that i couldn't do anything about it.
People would still love each other, and people would still leave each other.
Because pride is one thing that kills love, Because people look for respect in love .Because people use people who are in love. Because love has nothing to do with your mind.Because if you think that it has something to do with mind, then you haven't fallen in love, you just thought that you had.
I felt sorry because we all know that love can go in a second and we will wait a life time for it, if it goes.
But we will never realize this fact and work towards treating the love of our lives any better.
We will keep on taking them for granted.
We will keep on treating them as inconsequential.
We will rather take our chance on it rather cherish it.
I feel sorry for the way we are........
I felt sorry that my being sorry won't change a thing............................
3 comments:
Hi sweetheart
Intersting post... but makes me really really sad.
not for the girl, not for the two other people, but that makes me think about my own life.
Makes me sad reading the last line about nothing changing.
Makes me pity myself!
and then I hate myself for pitying myself.
but cant help it
makes me sad to read, and know that the post has been written by you. it makes me feel helpless.
love you
ae mere humnasheen.....
Lutf woh iishq mey paye hain ki jii janta hai.. Too Good..
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